Tuesday, September 9, 2014
What I Had Before I Had You- Sarah Cornwell
I won this from a goodreads, giveaway. I would like to thank Goodreads and the publisher for a copy of this book. Receiving this book for free, has in no way, influenced my opinions.
I really enjoyed this book. I might be biased since I'm a Psychology major. This book is about bi-polar disorder and the manic hi/lows that go with it. This book is a coming of age story, about Olivia who has to grow up with her mothers (Myla) manic episodes. She has to deal with living on her own and growing up with a mother who is unstable and unpredictable. Later in life, she is diagnosed with bi-polar and the gene is also given to her son. So she not only has to deal with it herself, she has to help her son.
I was just so engrossed in the story and getting the details of Olivia's story. She has to learn to fend for herself and never knows where her mother disappears to for days or weeks at a time. She then has some conflicting situations with her mom that force her into a bad crowd. She immediately embraces to life of drugs, sex and alcohol to feel "free." Throughout the whole book you don't know who to feel sorry for. I would feel so bad for Olivia but then something else would happen and I would feel bad for Myla. They were both struggling with so much on their own that they couldn't reach each other.
The story alternates between her coming of age story with her present story. She is dealing with a divorce and moving from Texas to NY. On her way, she stops at her birth place to take her kids to the ocean. While this is happening, you get her story with how she is dealing with her life and her son's diagnosis. All the while, she's trying to deal with her guilty feelings for abandoning her mother years ago.
This was a great story and it really opens your eyes to the disorder and how it affects everyone in a family.